Flowers in my life are my friendships! They are beautiful but take a lot of TLC. You cannot ignore them, you must maintain the relationship and give it plenty of water, not too much though. some Plants require a lot of water, some don't. some need 100% sun, some need shade and some are half and half. You must find this delicate balance with each friendship. Gardening is a lot of work, just ask any green thumb. Friendships are the same. Nothing comes easy.
Unfortunately for me, I tend to give a bit too much water at time. Water is something that cannot live without. So when i give water, i am helping people in their lives. When I give too much water, I am annoying them and killing the relationship. Like i said, some flowers don't need so much water. SOme friends would rather not me give them advice or helpful tips.
I don't mean to pry on their lives at all. I just feel that when i find something that works for me i am ready to share it with the world in hopes that I can help others! So when my friends don't take my advice, shrug me off or whatever, it hurts. I honestly feel rejected. I try not to feel that way, but hey, feelings are real and they are okay. it is how I handle those feelings. I usually say some snide comment. I obviously DO NOT handle this rejection well. but since i recognize it, i can fix it. it will just take time.
So if any of my friends read this, and they reject any feedback or advice.... I apologize to them. I only do it because i love and care for them so deeply. I will try not to snap at them, it is a tough emotional reaction to quit. But i hope that they do not give up on me. I am working on it. It is a shadow that i need to face.
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